Day 4...ok I lied it's actually Day 5
Cuz I started being unemployed on Monday. But I was too freaking jetlagged to realize that I had to blog.
Anyway. Yesterday was productive. I spent several hours gmatting, and a few hours researching business schools. That part was kinda discouraging. I was looking at these essay questions and started feeling like I need to go on sabbatical just to answer them. "What is most important to you and why?" Seriously.
This caused me to spend some time sitting on my couch and thinking. And then some time passed and I started wondering if I'm doing enough with my time. It made me really insecure. It's like, I get up in the morning, get ready to go somewhere, then realize that I have nowhere to go! And I'm like, fuck! What am I supposed to do with myself?
Starting a business can be such a slow process! I'm nowhere near the point yet where I can pick up the phone and call a marketing manager and solicit my services. I don't have my pitch ready, or a website or business cards. As of this moment, I am a 26-year-old girl with a good idea, a degree, a few years' worth of entertainment industry experience, and very little to show for my professional career (in my opinion).
I think the bottom line is that I recognize all the pieces that are in motion, but I'm not really sure how they're gonna come together. When I'm studying for the GMAT, I start getting really insecure, thinking about how it's not helping my business right now, and it's certainly not going to bring any money in the door. But then why do I want this MBA in the first place? Isn't it supposed to help me run a successful business? And so on, and so forth...
Then I started reading the Unemployment Blog archives and realized that Nick pretty much spent his unemployment being a lazy bastard, and that makes me feel MUCH better.
posted by Myasorubka @ 10:38 AM
2 Comments:
I spent MY unemployment being a lazy bastard too!!!!Nick shouldnt get all the credit! I'm equally lazy..I mean, I wandered Target for 3 hours!!!!!
OK, I don't know which to be more offended by: your characterization of me as a lazy bastard, or your total lack of understanding of how rewarding lazy bastard-dom can be. I spent a fair amount of my unemployment doing things that might be considered productive -- writing, cleaning, re-organizing the apartment, self-teaching basic piano skills, regular exercise -- but in the end, how much does any of that matter? What I remember the most is waking up every day (whenever I felt like waking up) with the exhilarating knowledge that I could do whatever the hell I wanted, within reason, and if it turned out to be a waste of time I'd have the same opportunity the next day. That's what unemployment is, my friend. It's not just a few extra hours a day to study and cook.
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